Stop Reading

There are two kinds of books I stop reading: ones that can't hold my interest, which are usually set aside towards the beginning; and ones that are so remarkable I don't want them to end.  Those ones are usually set aside towards the end.

It's funny, because you always hear about people talking about how a book was so good they couldn't put it down.  I think that's backwards.  I think if a book is that amazing you should wish it to remain unresolvable, and let its implications ruminate through the doorways of your mind for the rest of time.

The only books worth finishing are the OK ones.

Crazy Idea

"I have this crazy idea, that If I take care of enough people- then things will take care of themselves."
-Donald Fillius

Evolving Faith?

I'm not sure sure if my faith is growing or slowing.  

Is it holier to pray by the sea, or run through it?  I don't fold my hands as often when I pray anymore, but I wouldn't say I pray any less.  Sometimes I believe we are called to lose our faith so that we may find it, and die so that we may live.  If only I was always at one of those clear cut cross roads.  In reality I'm often unsure of what road I'm on at all.  Im often repeating the process of taking 2 steps forward and 2 back again, finding what I already knew was there all along.  Or dying half hearted deaths daily, not to really die, but to avoid having to really live.

God, give me the bravery to live on a one way street. 

First & Last

I had my first martini ever tonight.

I think it will be my last.

It was cool to feel like James Bond for 7 seconds.

Then it wasn't.

At least now I know.

Now next time someone says, "I've never tried a martini before".

I can be all like, "I have, you should try one".

And then they'll try it and be like, "eww, this is yucky".

And I'll be like, "I know, right?"

Then I'll know what it's like to be with someone experiencing what it's like to be like James Bond for

7 seconds, and I very well may remember that feeling forever.

And even though my first martini was likely my last, it will have all been worth it.